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Who is Taryn?

Up until Sunday morning, 27th February, most of us at Rosebank Union Church didn’t know her. But on that day, at the 8:00 service, Leigh read a letter she had written, introducing herself and explaining why she wished to be baptized. Her story was read again at the 10:00 service. By the end of the morning, hundreds of people knew Taryn and have begun praying for her and her family. 

I was one of those people who had never met Taryn although I was aware of her situation because of Leigh’s contact with her. Since that Sunday, I think about her, pray for her and tell others about her. 

Here is what Leigh read before he and her dad, Peter Durham, carried her from her wheel chair into the waters of baptism.

“Good morning. My name is Taryn Dickinson. Up until two years ago many would have described my life as blessed. I was born into a big and beautiful family with parents who loved me and sisters who still to this day remain my best friends. As a little girl I attended Sunday school at Rosebank Union Church. We grew up knowing the Lord and as a young adult I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. Life was good. I married the love of my life, we travelled the world and lived and worked overseas. God blessed us with a beautiful healthy baby girl, Tess, followed by her equally beautiful and healthy baby brother, Campbell. Life was a bed of roses and we hadn’t come across one thorn…

Tarryn's Baptism

“As Christians we know that storms will come and that our faith will be tested but often we get swept up in day-to-day living without giving a moment of thought to how we will equip ourselves when the storm finally hits. My brother and sister-in-law lived in Bermuda for a time and every so often they would be given fair warning of approaching hurricanes. They would prepare themselves and their home. They would huddle with their little girl in the bath with a mattress covering them while the storm raged outside. They were prepared and protected as best they could be. They didn’t open their doors and go outside to observe the forces of nature. That would have been reckless and irresponsible. I’m using this analogy because I was that person who went out into the storm, ill-equipped. The weather was wonderful so why prepare for a storm?

“Two and a half years ago, a few months after the birth of my son, I started noticing weakness in my fingers. I was fit and healthy so naturally these signs were noticeable. I brushed it off and put it down to a pinched nerve. Symptoms progressed at an alarming rate and despite visits to several neurologists, scans, invasive testing and in-depth investigation of my symptoms, my doctors were unable to diagnose my condition. Finally after 3 months, my husband and I sat in yet another doctor’s waiting room as grief consumed us while being told that I had Motor Neuron Disease, also known as ALS, a rare, degenerative disease that mainly destroys the body’s muscular neurotransmitters. In one sentence I was given 2 to 3 years to live. Thoughts of an empty chair at my daughter’s wedding table, missing my son’s sports games, birthdays, graduations and all those wonderful privileges that come with being a mom threatened to overcome me. I was drowning in sorrow as I turned to the only One I knew could bring me out of this…God.

Tarryn Dickinson“With a strong, supportive, praying family, we asked God to give us all courage, strength and the greatest faith in the midst of such a calamity. He has not only answered our prayers but given me so much more, a peace that not even I understand, family and friends who continue to amaze me with their love, kindness and support. Over the past two years I have lost most of the use of my left arm, my legs and my speech but regardless of my weakening body my faith and my walk with Him grows stronger every day.

“Today I am incredibly privileged to be able to show and share with each one of you, my Rosebank Union Church family, and my Lord and Saviour, this outward show of my deep faith.”

Why am I sharing Taryn’s story with you? Because she is someone worth knowing even if it’s just through this blog. As she’s become weaker and weaker, her faith has become stronger and stronger.

I’ve just finished reading Mark Buchanan’s latest book, “Spiritual Rhythm” where he tells the story of a fellow in his church called Clarence. I want to quote a short section that Mark wrote about Clarence, replacing his name with Taryn’s.

“The only thing she does in the church now is show up, which is a major feat in itself. Taryn is learning the secret of abiding. She’s practicing a tenacious dependency on Christ every day, every moment. In this wintertime of her life, when she can do very little, she’s experiencing her greatest closeness with Jesus. Her life is taking the shape of a prayer. If prayer, as Revelation 5 tells us, is incense in the throne room of God, then Taryn’s days are pure fragrance.”

Listen to Taryn’s Testimony

CLICK HERE to listen to a recording of Leigh Robinson reading Taryn’s testimony on the occasion of her baptistm

Things like earthquakes, tsunamis, cyclones, and all sorts of other similar events beyond man’s control have historically been referred to as ‘acts of God,’ although I have noticed that in recent years it is more common to refer to them as ‘acts of nature.’ Whether the change is indicative of a desire to remove God from the picture so as not to offend atheists, or whether it is motivated by a desire to protect God against being blamed for such terrible things, I am not sure. Perhaps it’s a bit of both.

Scripture is clear that such things are indeed the acts of a sovereign God. In Psalm 148:8 we read of “lightning and hail, snow and clouds, stormy winds that do his bidding.” And Psalm 135:6 affirms, “The LORD does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and on the earth, in the seas and all their depths.” Does this mean that the massive earthquake off the coast of Japan last Friday, and the resultant tsunami, was ultimately of God’s doing? Yes! It was indeed an ‘act of God.’

But if all we see are the ‘acts of God’ we miss so much. In Psalm 103:7 we read that God “made known his ways to Moses, his acts to the people of Israel.” All the people of Israel saw were the acts of God—the things that happened, the external stuff, what God did. But by his grace, God made his ways known to Moses. Moses was given the gift of understanding the ways (purposes) of God behind the acts of God.

In Ephesians 1:11 Paul says that God “works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will.” This fact is hidden from our eyes unless we read it in Scripture. Apart from God’s Word, all we see are the acts. But reading it in Scripture does not mean that we have all the answers as to why things happen. It does mean, however, that when we see the acts of God, such as earthquakes and tsunamis, we can know that they are not just accidents, not just random ‘acts of nature,’ but evidences of the activity of a loving, sovereign, just and wise God.

How should we respond to these devastating ‘acts of God’? We should respond with awe, worship, humility, and with prayer and compassion for those affected by them. We should also respond with excited hope, because great mercy often follows mysterious acts. The words of poet William Cowper are profound in this regard:

God moves in a mysterious way
His wonders to perform;
He plants His footsteps in the sea
And rides upon the storm.


Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never failing skill
He treasures up His bright designs
And works His sovereign will.


Ye fearful saints, fresh courage take;
The clouds ye so much dread
Are big with mercy and shall break
In blessings on your head.


Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But trust Him for His grace;
Behind a frowning providence
He hides a smiling face.


His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flower.


Blind unbelief is sure to err
And scan His work in vain;
God is His own interpreter,
And He will make it plain.

Pastor Leigh RobinsonA few days ago I received this message from my brother-in-law, who has spent over thirty years of his life as a missionary in Thailand:

“Please pray for my friend Kias, a Thai Christian folk singer who is entering the hospital tomorrow for treatment. On March 23rd he was diagnosed with a rare cancer that has spread through his internal organs. He is spitting up blood and the doctor has not given him hope. Today he shared with me that he is at peace with God even though he is walking through the shadow of death, he is not afraid. His wife and young daughter (about 6) need grace during this time as well. Pray for God’s will to be done, whether it is bodily healing or whether it is a new body in heaven. Pray for Nok his wife to be strong in her faith.”

As I was running early this morning and praying for Kias my mind flitted to a testimony of a woman who has just become a member of our church. I read her story last night. She was born and raised in a Hindu family, but was never happy and comfortable with prayers and rituals the family had to perform. When she was 12, her uncle came to faith and she would often go to church with him. She left school in Grade 11 to look after her bed-ridden dad. At that time her uncle and elders of his church visited her dad and prayed for him. Miraculously he was healed and the whole family gave up Hinduism and embraced Christ.

Why do we not see more miraculous healings? Lack of faith? Lack of prayer? Lack of expectation? Probably! But then there’s ‘mystery’. Who can understand the ways of God! We must pray for healing, but “learn to trust his heart where we cannot trace his hand.”